{"id":2141,"date":"2011-04-22T23:57:20","date_gmt":"2011-04-22T23:57:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.jasonbennion.com\/?p=2141"},"modified":"2011-04-22T23:57:20","modified_gmt":"2011-04-22T23:57:20","slug":"friday_evening_videos_your_wildest_dreams","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.jasonbennion.com\/index.php\/2011\/04\/22\/friday_evening_videos_your_wildest_dreams\/","title":{"rendered":"Friday Evening Videos: &#8220;Your Wildest Dreams&#8221;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>One memorable evening about a century ago (or so it seems), back when I was a callow 20-year-old kid struggling to come to terms with my first real broken heart, a young lady of my acquaintance asked me how old I felt, deep down inside. My answer &#8212; &#8220;about a hundred and two&#8221; &#8212; was intended to be flippant, the sort of thing Bruce Willis might growl at the end of a brutal action flick that left him covered in filth and blood. But the statement was honest, too. I really <i>did <\/i>feel ancient that night, hollowed out and spent by experiences I was turning out to be ill-equipped to deal with. My friend nodded in agreement, took a drag on her cigarette &#8212; no doubt her conscious attempt to add some drama to the scene, as much as the simple action of smoking &#8212; and said my half-assed joke made sense because she&#8217;d always perceived me as having an old soul.<\/p>\n<p>Now, I don&#8217;t know if I believe in the concept of &#8220;old souls&#8221; &#8212; that implies reincarnation or pre-existence or some other philosophical notion that would make my head hurt if I gave it much thought &#8212; but there&#8217;s no question I always identified more with the adults in the room than with the other kids at the folding card table in the corner. Also, I recall that from an early age, I had an unusual knack for empathizing with the feelings of my elders. Consider, for example, my youthful affection for the song featured in tonight&#8217;s edition of Friday Evening Videos:<\/p>\n<p><iframe title=\"YouTube video player\" src=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/kmmPFrkuPq0\" height=\"405\" width=\"500\" allowfullscreen=\"\" frameborder=\"0\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Your Wildest Dreams&#8221; was The Moody Blues&#8217; highest-charting single in two decades, widely viewed as a big comeback for a band that hadn&#8217;t ever really gone away but had struggled for years to match its greatest success. Despite the song&#8217;s status as a hit, however, it didn&#8217;t please everyone. Older Moody fans were put off by the band&#8217;s newly accessible, synth-based pop sound, and many folks my own age sneered that it was just another steaming nugget of the Baby Boomers&#8217; nostalgia for their precious Sixties. That lady friend I mentioned a moment ago was firmly in the latter camp; she told me once that her mom loved &#8220;Your Wildest Dreams,&#8221; which was reason enough for her to despise it.<\/p>\n<p>Personally, I sided with her mom. I also loved this song, and a big part of the reason why was that its story of a middle-aged man wondering what had ever become of his lost love resonated with me. It shouldn&#8217;t have, when I think about it. I was still a year away from graduating high school when &#8220;Your Wildest Dreams&#8221; was released, and I hadn&#8217;t yet experienced anything that could legitimately be called &#8220;love.&#8221; Regardless, though, I <i>got <\/i>what the song was about, in that weird way I&#8217;d often gotten so many things that rightfully should&#8217;ve been beyond my years. I&#8217;m not saying I was precociously mature; I wasn&#8217;t, and in fact I feel like I&#8217;m still pretty damn <i>im<\/i>mature for my age in many important respects. But I was able to imagine myself as this song&#8217;s narrator, to project myself forward in time and share in the wistful, melancholy fondness he still feels for this woman.<\/p>\n<p>The great irony of this little ramble is that it&#8217;s now been nearly 20 years since I last saw my friend and I often find myself wondering if she ever thinks of me, and if so, how. I&#8217;ve gone from being able to imagine myself as the protagonist of &#8220;Your Wildest Dreams&#8221; &#8212; a song this girl hated, remember &#8212; to <i>really being<\/i> the protagonist. And my soul, old or otherwise, has very little to do with that. That&#8217;s just plain old time that&#8217;s done that&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><b>ADDENDUM:<\/b> A reader pointed out this morning that in this modern, electronic age of miracles in which we live, it&#8217;s not all that difficult to track down people we&#8217;ve lost touch with. For the record, <span data-jsid=\"text\">I have looked for the girl I think of when I hear this song. Not surprisingly, she&#8217;s on Facebook, but she&#8217;s apparently not interested in connecting to anyone except a very small circle, as she&#8217;s not accepting friend requests or eve<span class=\"text_exposed_show\">n messages, and she&#8217;s made very little information about herself public.<br \/>\n(Still, she&#8217;s better than the other girl I referenced above, the one who broke my heart &#8212; she&#8217;s on Facebook, too, but she has <i><br \/>\neverything <\/i>locked down, no public info at all, not even a photo. What&#8217;s the point of even being involved with Facebook if you&#8217;re going to be that way about it? At least with the Wildest Dreams girl, I&#8217;ve been able to see what she looks like these days and find out what state she&#8217;s living in. Enough information to satisfy my basic curiosity.) <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p>To be honest, though, I&#8217;m not sure I <i>want<i> <\/i><\/i>to get reacquainted with her. We&#8217;ve all had the experience of being disappointed after bumping into an old love or friend (this girl was both for me at various times), and I just don&#8217;t think I want to take the risk with her. I don&#8217;t want to hear that life may have ground the edges off the crazy, fierce, fragile, tough-talking-but-creme-filled cookie who sat with me beside Little Cottonwood Creek one night, smoking and listening while I poured out my heart. And I <i>really <\/i>don&#8217;t want to know what she might think of the way I&#8217;ve turned out. She was very outspoken when she disapproved of something or someone, and, well, I never did shake the dust of this old town off my heels like she thought I ought to. Sometimes maybe it really is better to leave sleeping dogs alone.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>One memorable evening about a century ago (or so it seems), back when I was a callow 20-year-old kid struggling to come to terms with my first real broken heart, a young lady of my acquaintance asked me how old I felt, deep down inside. 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